ugh what a morning

today is just now started and I am already so ready to just run away since the girls will be gone and not look back for a week. I so need a vacation and well I know I will not get a vacation until this baby is born and that is just for 4 days. But that entire time Rick will be whining because he wants me at home. I just pray this baby doesn't need the small NICU stay. I know it is NOTHING compared to other peoples childrens NICU stay, its just a week and that is nothing I know this. I am hoping baby wont need the stay so that I can maybe get some peace to my mini-vacation after delivery. After that the next vacation won't be unless I have another baby or until 2030 when this baby moves out and is on their own. Maybe then I will get a vacation to myself. I will be 49yrs old before I get a real vacation. How sad is that? the price I pay to have my family and really wouldn't change it but just I had more help where it is needed.

Vacation

the girls leave for their dads tomorrow for 15 days. I am looking for the slight break in chaos factor.

I decided to have the Quad screen test done this time. I am worried about it but trying to just wait and see what it says. I had a doctors appt today and Dr Sh*thead decided to just blow me off on my concern (like normal for him since osiris was born). I was told that if I started bleeding to call the office. Well I started to bleed some yesterday and decided that since I had less than 24hrs before my doc appt I'd keep an eye on it and rest as much as I could. When I told the doctor that he said well you are on lovenox and we are seeing this happen more n more often. Uhm this didnt happen last year at all bleeding wise at least. So yeah I am annoyed at him. I was able to get my u/s scheduled too. It is July 23rd at 9a! I am so excited I am ready to find out what I am having. sabrina is praying for a lil girl and Aja well she wants a boy so she doesn't lose the spot as the baby girl.

scary thing but slightly funny

So I think I am having a girl. I think that because I am all the sudden missing an ex-boyfriend. I didn't miss him when pg with either of the boys but missed him dearly when pg with both of the girls. So I guess in 5-6wks I will find out for sure. All the sudden of the sudden out of nowhere I felt my heart ache and then started crying and thinking about him. With the boys I would have swore up and down that Rick was cheating and now I am missing an ex. Granted this ex was my first love. Oh well I am just going to take it as a sign of having a girl.

Kids are doing well and enjoying the summer. Aja had alot of fun at her birthday party. Sabrina has been learning the meaning of room clean but hopefully she will get it understood soon, lol.

U/s pic 13wks 4days

Doc Appt

I had my regular ob appt today which was also a follow-up to Monday. Doc tried to find the heartbeat and said he couldn't i wasn't worried at all. I knew it might be hard to find right now on me. He said to make sure he wanted a quick u/s done. So I had an u/s and hb was 150. good and strong. I was given a picture to take home. I go back in 2 weeks.

Osiris finally seems to be getting better and is no longer vomiting and barely poo's except for maybe 3 times a day which is better than what it was a week ago.

Thaddeus actually seems to be getting better also. He has finally stopped vomiting and we are waiting for him to get better on the poo end.

Sabrina and Aja are enjoying soccer camp and learning alot about the game.

Got some news today

I started bleeding pretty badly this weekend. I'll skip to today because the ER thing still ticks me off. So I called the OB office this morning. They got me in for an ultrasound at 12p. Baby has a good strong heartbeat and was sleeping so wasn't too active at all. I found out that I have a posterior uterus, a 3cm fibroid, and my placenta is extremely close to my cervix. So I will be watched even closer this time than ever before. Now I am glad I called the ob even after visiting the ER. The ER doctor told me baby was measuring 11wks and that I would miscarry. My ob says he sees no sign of me miscarrying anytime soon but that doesn't mean I am out of the woods yet. i have never had this bleeding before in pregnancy and now I am going to be a worry wart. On pelvic rest and suppose to take it easy. OB laughed when he said he'd tell me bedrest but with 4 kids at home he didn't see that happening to well.

6 month check-up

Thaddeus had his 6 month check-up. The receptionist asked how old he was and couldn't believe it had already been 6 months. She laughed and said just think this time next year you'll have a 5 month old. We had a good laugh. Thad came in at 19lbs 6ozs and 28 inches long. So he is growing in height and slowing down some in weight. I believe the vomiting and diarrhea he had planned a small role in the small weight gain but I'll take it.

I dared to the stores (walmart, kroger, aldi's, and martin's) today with all 4 kids. At Kroger I let Sabrina keep an eye on Osiris because she asked to. Osiris got away from her but was still right near me. I moved the cart to let someone pass and Osiris just stood there. I called him over and the lady said its okay he is fine. I told her I just didn't want him ran over because someone else wasn't fully paying attention and couldn't see him. Her reply was... "well you do have "too" many kids". (I laughed in my head as I said ....) Well I guess my husband and I don't feel we do since #5 is on the way and due this year. She gasped and didn't say another word and walked away. Ha! that was so much fun.

The girls are going to their dads this weekend! Woot!! So alil less craziness around here. I'll miss them dearly but I know its good for them and me to have breaks to their dads.

Osiris is home

Osiris is home. He came home yesterday. I am glad to be home, somewhat. I am glad he is out of the hospital and not hooked up to i.v.s anymore. However, at the hospital I didn't have to listen to Rick complain about everything. I could just ignore his calls.

We got a letter today that I was expecting from the health department about the bacteria infection Osiris has. Rick is being a COMPLETE AND TOTAL PRICK about the letter. He has flat out said he will refuse them any access to the house for any reason without a warrant. He almost acts like he is guilty of something.

I am ready to run away and not look back and of course take the kids with me.

Osiris in the hospital

Osiris threw up all over the place and himself last night about 930. So I called the on-call doc again and asked his advice. He said take him to the ER for an antibiotic i.v. Okay I did that and they didn't want to do that. The ER doc called the on-call doc and they agreed on something else. They admitted Osiris for the hospital until he can keep food down and start showing some improvement with his bowel movements. I was up for 23 1/2hrs before finally getting some sleep this morning while sharing a very uncomfy fold chair/bed that I had to share with Osiris because he would not sleep in the crib. I didn't mind sharing because I knew where he was, how he was, and felt better. So at quarter til 8 a Rick calls and says I need to get home. It took me 2hrs to leave Osiris because I just felt so bad and couldn't listen to him cry. The nurse went in there and said she would rock him or just hold him if that's what he needed.

that's my update for now. I need to try and get a nap in since Thaddeus is taking a nap. I will also be watching Thaddeus because I don't really want him in the hospital and then both boys being in 2 different hospitals. I REALLY need to get the girls and osiris switched doctors so all the kids can go to the same doctor and same hospital.

I feel HORRIBLE!!!

I have no idea how this happened but I feel so horrible it did. I blame myself and think back to how it might have happened. Osiris has had diarrhea for about a week now. On Wednesday I took him to the doctor because he had 8 diarrhea diapers in less than 6hrs. He would not eat anything so I was worried also the night before he just screamed for over an hr like he was in severe pain. So the doctor was not going to do anything since Aja had diarrhea problems in Nov. 2007 thru late last year. I made the comment that maybe Osiris has IBS since Rick has it also. The doctor said it is possible and told me to just give him pedialyte for 36hrs and see what happened. Well I asked about a stool culture because the diarrhea (TMI) smelled horrible (like rotten eggs) and was pastel yellowish looking to neon greenish looking. The doctor order the culture and I am glad I asked for it.

The stool culture came back positive for Campylobacteriosis. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Campylobacteriosis

I have no idea how he got it. He started projectile vomitting last night and it smells horrible!!! I am worried because now Thad is acting the same way as Osiris was at first. I have a call into the on-call doctor for Thad and waiting to see what he says. Just keep the kids in your thoughts please.