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Sabrina, Aja, and Thaddeus have all had this viral thing that's going around. The only child not to have it yet is Osiris. Hoping that he doesn't get it before I get him to the health department to get the h1n1 vaccine on Friday afternoon.

Sabrina's fever broke Sunday morning, Aja's and Thaddeus' fevers started Sunday night. Aja's fever broke on Monday afternoon and Thaddeus' is pretty much broken except at times when he needs fluids. Once he gets some he is fine.

33wks 3 days so we are looking 5wks 4days to 6wks until my c-section date. Ah! Hopefully plan on getting it ordered to be scheduled at my next visit. I need a date so I can tell my mom on when to tell her work when she won't be there so sh can spend time with the 4 grand-kids at home and take 2 of them to school and pick-up lol.

Sabrina sick

Sabrina has had a cough for 2wks now. At first it wasn't bothering her or anything. It has gotten worse, Tuesday she went and was seen doctor listened and looked her over. Said lungs sounded clear and she looked fine. If the cough was not better by today then when we showed up for the flu shot clinic to let them know to let the doctor know. Well the clinic was canceled. So we go to the store for a few groceries and come home. While in the store all she did was say she was cold. So I try to hurry up to get home.

once home she changes out of her school uniform, feeds the dogs and sweeps the floor real quick. We took her temp and 101.7 .... so I called the doctor and spoke with him. He wants me to do my best to treat her at home for the weekend. He wants to avoid her going to the ER at all costs right now. With her asthma she is at a great risk of catching the H1N1 from someone in the ER waiting room then normal people. So we are in for a fun weekend.

Stupid Google Calendar!!!

Okay so if I don't put every damn thing on the stupid google calendar I get told "i'm sorry it wasn't on there so I scheduled something else". OH MY FLIPPING GOODNESS!!!! I've only been saying out damn flicking out for 2 1/2wks now that the girls were going TODAY to the flu shot clinic at the doctors office for the flu shot since they have yet to have it. So now I get to drag the boys along in the cold and rain to get the girls their flu shots because Rick "forgot" i said i was taking the girls to get the flu shots.

My back doesn't hurt bad enough apparently so I get to go try to keep 2 boys entertained while we wait for the girls to get the flu shots.

I guess I should start putting on the calendar when I am going to take a shower, go pee, eat something, or walk to check the damn mailbox.

Ah!!

Okay so I am ready to scream. I am so tired of being made to feel like its MY JOB and ONLY MY JOB! to raise the kids. Granted I know the girls are mine fine, I'll do my job with them. But he is the step-dad and is supposed to be helping in that department but whatever. Now he is the father of the boys and I still get no damn help!!!

I have to try and cram all of my appts and any appts for the kids in on a Monday. Okay fine organization for him but whatever. I am so close to breaking and being over this. I honestly feel I'd handle things better on my own knowing that an adult in the house is not doing their part since it will all fall on me anyways. I mean is it so wrong to feel that the other adult in the house who helped bring 2 of the current 4 into this world help in their raising? I guess it is since I don't get any help. I ask for help and get felt to feel like my feeling of needing help doesn't matter at all.

I am doing my best but I am not sure how much longer that will be good enough or even work. ........................

Anyways, Leo looks to be a big boy. Monday I had an ultrasound done and he was showing to be 4lbs 13ozs at 32wks. His head was measuring in for the size of a 35wker. Based on the avg of all the measurements he is measuring on track to be ready for delivery on Dec 1st..... 12 days before my EDD. Big baby who hopefully will be completely healthy.

2yrs ago

2yrs ago I was in back labor with Osiris and no one believed me. Since I was not dialated with the contractions I was told "it's normal back pain that can happen here is some pain meds, go home and rest". It had all started on September 25, 2007 but figured it was really from all the walking I had done during the visit of my dad and step-mom. I was not concerned until after 2 days of taking tylenol extra strength the pain had not gone away but stayed and barely dulled down. I am handling things better this year than last year. I appreciate that I was able to get as far along as I did with Osiris and all my kids really. I know my kids birth experiences is no match for a lot of moms with "premies" and I mean not lung premature but premature in the whole term because they still have so much growing to do.

Don't get me wrong I am sad that time has flown by so fast for him and hes grown up so much already. I am still even concerned that this baby will spend a few days to a week in the NICU but I can already see I will handle it better than last year. After a lot of soul searching, I know this is not going to kill me and infact makes me stronger but not as strong as Niff and Mac. They will to me always remain stronger than myself to have come this far and be so strong still.

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It seems that this pregnancy was not left out. I fell yesterday morning in the parking lot at church picking Sabrina up from a sleep over that was held there. Osiris was right behind me and I was turning around to find him and tripped over him and was able to get him moved off to the side enough before i fell so i didnt fall on him. I hurt my left side really good. My left shoulder is still hurting so tomorrow going to call the doctor to see what they want to do.

High Risk Doctor

Today at the hematology doctor i made mention of my spotting/bleeding and both doctors agreed that it was "not" normal while on lovenox. So now I am being referred to the high-risk doctor at the hospital just to double check and make sure everything is okay.

The high-risk doctor called my regular ob and told him to do an ultrasound. So I go tomorrow at 2pm for an u/s and see whats happening.

Osiris is a goof

He is jealous of Thaddeus being in the walker now. So when Thaddeus gets out of it Osiris likes to climb in it. Osiris will walk around in the walker and bump into things like the wall, the dog, the couch, the coffee table lol, he will then tell whatever he bumped into "sowwie". It is funny! He just seems to have so much fun doing it. He reminds me why I love my kids when he is being a goof. All the good funny moments are the best. I will gladly take all the good with their bad any day as long as I live.

Men ugh

Okay so Rick asked what was wrong. I finally came clean with it all. How I have been feeling and everything. I have my initial meeting with the counselor next Thursday on Sept 4th. I am so ready honestly. The place I was referred to offers a lot of help and group sessions and is recommended on a website for Prenatal Depression support. Anyways back to the men thing well in this case a male. I told him how I was feeling like running away and not looking back. Now he has been teasing me about it since. Oh yeah teasing me on my feelings is so going to make it better right? I just roll my eyes and try (key word try) to ignore him but inside it hurts and I told him but he laughs and says hes joking. Uhm not something to joke about. He asked about supper and I told him I don't have a close because I just wanted to hurl. The zoloft dosage was really affecting my appetite when I am stressed. He honestly looked right at me and said "Well it won't hurt you any". OMG SO NOT the point. the point is I am pregnant and need to make sure I do eat to make sure my child is growing.

Why can't he just actually understand or at least act like he understands how I am feeling.

Stride Rite Code

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Code = SCHOOL20

1hr = FAIL (possibly)

I had my 1hr gd screen today. Since I have my own glucose meter already anyways, I took it along with me today. I drank my drink in like 30 seconds and man it was still gross ha! I had my appt and it just dawned on me today that the doctor I had my appt with today was gay lol! Nothing like a gay male ob. At least I know he ain't looking at my chest lol!!! So anyways I sit in the waiting room reading a few magazines and posting a lil on my phone. I tested my levels with a finger prick 2 minutes before my blood draw and I was 141 and the cut off this year at the office is 135. So if the blood draw comes back like the finger prick than I will be doing the 3hr screen. So yay me! I guess a first time for anything. I did just barely pass last year. I got a 139 and the cut off was 140. So maybe that was partly why Thad was such a chunky baby at birth.