Just a randomness

I know that I am no longer the same person I was 6 yrs ago. I not the same person I was a week ago. I've grown up and become a better person, mother, friend, and overall better me. Yet the ONE thing I can not and will not change is the love I feel for ALL my children. I love Tripp to the end of the earth and back. I'm doing my best to do right for him. I go to work when I'm supposed and able to. Some days I get called to leave early due to something with him. However, those days are far and few between. I work my tail off to support us and take care of my support for the boys. I get hurt by others and I don't get upset. I cry inside and keep moving on never letting go of the small hope I will again see my other children. .... Everyone wants to just say that moms are the bad ones for keeping the kids from the dads, but what about the dads who do that to the moms? ..... I've done everything in my power to give them the chance to see the results but I'm met with resistance. I get a small bit of hope dangled in front of me to see my girls and then its yanked away. I fall backwards a few feet but I never give up. I will keep going! I will continue to just cry inside and put the smile on each day. Tripp will never feel that is not good enough for me. He is my blessing and an amazing gift from God when I felt I was done having children. I thank God everyday for Tripp. I should write more often but just need a better place to do it. Maybe one day I will write a book about my life and it will be a best seller or maybe it will at least help me fully heal on this topic.

So please anyone who reads this please hug your children extra tight and be thankful you get to.