2yrs ago

2yrs ago I was in back labor with Osiris and no one believed me. Since I was not dialated with the contractions I was told "it's normal back pain that can happen here is some pain meds, go home and rest". It had all started on September 25, 2007 but figured it was really from all the walking I had done during the visit of my dad and step-mom. I was not concerned until after 2 days of taking tylenol extra strength the pain had not gone away but stayed and barely dulled down. I am handling things better this year than last year. I appreciate that I was able to get as far along as I did with Osiris and all my kids really. I know my kids birth experiences is no match for a lot of moms with "premies" and I mean not lung premature but premature in the whole term because they still have so much growing to do.

Don't get me wrong I am sad that time has flown by so fast for him and hes grown up so much already. I am still even concerned that this baby will spend a few days to a week in the NICU but I can already see I will handle it better than last year. After a lot of soul searching, I know this is not going to kill me and infact makes me stronger but not as strong as Niff and Mac. They will to me always remain stronger than myself to have come this far and be so strong still.

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It seems that this pregnancy was not left out. I fell yesterday morning in the parking lot at church picking Sabrina up from a sleep over that was held there. Osiris was right behind me and I was turning around to find him and tripped over him and was able to get him moved off to the side enough before i fell so i didnt fall on him. I hurt my left side really good. My left shoulder is still hurting so tomorrow going to call the doctor to see what they want to do.

High Risk Doctor

Today at the hematology doctor i made mention of my spotting/bleeding and both doctors agreed that it was "not" normal while on lovenox. So now I am being referred to the high-risk doctor at the hospital just to double check and make sure everything is okay.

The high-risk doctor called my regular ob and told him to do an ultrasound. So I go tomorrow at 2pm for an u/s and see whats happening.

Osiris is a goof

He is jealous of Thaddeus being in the walker now. So when Thaddeus gets out of it Osiris likes to climb in it. Osiris will walk around in the walker and bump into things like the wall, the dog, the couch, the coffee table lol, he will then tell whatever he bumped into "sowwie". It is funny! He just seems to have so much fun doing it. He reminds me why I love my kids when he is being a goof. All the good funny moments are the best. I will gladly take all the good with their bad any day as long as I live.

Men ugh

Okay so Rick asked what was wrong. I finally came clean with it all. How I have been feeling and everything. I have my initial meeting with the counselor next Thursday on Sept 4th. I am so ready honestly. The place I was referred to offers a lot of help and group sessions and is recommended on a website for Prenatal Depression support. Anyways back to the men thing well in this case a male. I told him how I was feeling like running away and not looking back. Now he has been teasing me about it since. Oh yeah teasing me on my feelings is so going to make it better right? I just roll my eyes and try (key word try) to ignore him but inside it hurts and I told him but he laughs and says hes joking. Uhm not something to joke about. He asked about supper and I told him I don't have a close because I just wanted to hurl. The zoloft dosage was really affecting my appetite when I am stressed. He honestly looked right at me and said "Well it won't hurt you any". OMG SO NOT the point. the point is I am pregnant and need to make sure I do eat to make sure my child is growing.

Why can't he just actually understand or at least act like he understands how I am feeling.

Stride Rite Code

Good only online at striderite.com but here is a code for 20% of $50 or more. If any of you know they have expensive shoes anyways so 20% is a nice little break.
Code = SCHOOL20

1hr = FAIL (possibly)

I had my 1hr gd screen today. Since I have my own glucose meter already anyways, I took it along with me today. I drank my drink in like 30 seconds and man it was still gross ha! I had my appt and it just dawned on me today that the doctor I had my appt with today was gay lol! Nothing like a gay male ob. At least I know he ain't looking at my chest lol!!! So anyways I sit in the waiting room reading a few magazines and posting a lil on my phone. I tested my levels with a finger prick 2 minutes before my blood draw and I was 141 and the cut off this year at the office is 135. So if the blood draw comes back like the finger prick than I will be doing the 3hr screen. So yay me! I guess a first time for anything. I did just barely pass last year. I got a 139 and the cut off was 140. So maybe that was partly why Thad was such a chunky baby at birth.

Sitting up

Thaddeus has decided to show mommy he can sit up and do just fine. He will army crawl all over the house and even tries to get on his knees to crawl. He will fall backwards on his butt and end up sitting up. He will sit there and then decide to take off crawling again. It is so sweet really.

Sabrina met her teacher today at school. The teacher seems really nice. We turned in the "extra" supplies we got for the class room and made it known that I could help more if needed.

I am feeling better. I was really sick for a few days. Not able to keep anything down. I am able to keep some light small things down now. This break from things has been nice and I've been able to get a few things accomplished during the time. I have been able to sit back and enjoy this pregnancy a little bit more. I was able to notice that Leo is a big mover and strong one too. Monday is going to be interesting. I have my 1hr glucola test and me 24wk appt. Plus FIL and his GF fly into town at around 1030a. They are going to visit for a few hours on and then Rick is going to take them to the gf's daughters place an hr away. Sabrina starts school Monday so its a busy busy day.

I get more excited with each passing day and also very scared as December approaches. I can't wait to meet this little man and I'm very scared because I know my uterus is getting weak. I am putting my complete and utter faith in my doctor to do what is best medically.

may everyone have a great rest of the weekend.

Here it us just after 4am est and I'm up and awake because Osiris won't go back to sleep. Rick woke me to tell me that Osiris was awake standing behind me and that was pretty much my clue Rick wasn't moving. I am so tired and starting to think my ear pain/issues is due to lack of sleep but won't know for sure until some time in September.

Time to go hack n sit in the dark to see if maybe just maybe he will go back to sleep for awhile. (small side note I love thst I can now post enteries from my cell via txt MSG to blogger.)

Today was a better day overall. Felt nice to have a day with so little net activity going on. I feel a little less stressed but still tired overall. Still wish I had a break to myself though.

Today Osiris really got in the pool to play, it was so cute. He had a blast playing with his sisters n I hope it's a good sign.

Watching lady and the tramp on a Saturday night is not really my idea of relaxing. However, Rick went out drinking again tonight for "a few hrs". So not much else to do except let the kids have some entertainment they want. I mean it's good for them and won't kill me lol.

So I guess I'm going to go cuddle with Osiris n finish watching the movie.

Break

I am taking a big break from BBC for awhile. I have enough going on in life and well BBC right now makes me want to throw the computers and laptops against the wall into a zillion pieces. So I think I need a break, since I don't seem to have balls/guts to step up to something. Best for me to take a break.

I expect to lose most people following my blog because of this post.

hope everyone has a nice lovely weekend.