Busy

The work for the business is starting to pick-up and we are starting to get slammed. I am overwhelmed even more now because I have to figure out a way to get work done in there plus tend the kids. I just don't feel comfortable leaving a 7yr old in charge of a 3 younger siblings with the youngest 2 still being very dependent on someone for most of everything. Rick does not see a problem with it however. So we have been arguing/discussing this for a few weeks and I just finally have taken the boys in the shop with me when I'm out there and the girls are in the house or outside. Normally outside in the backyard playing and Osiris goes out there and "flies" on his swing.

I've had my Zoloft updated once again so hopefully I can deal with everything without snapping and taking a drive like I used when when Aja was a baby. I use to just take Sabrina to her dads and keep Aja because he could not handle both girls alone and I did not want to stay with him. So Aja and myself would just go for a drive and not come back until the next day. Back then we'd end up in Ohio somewhere and rent a room, spend the night then head back home. Can't do that anymore these days. Sometimes I just wish I could do it once and do it alone (other than bean inside of course) and get time away. Oh well I will get another hospital vacation in Dec for about a week ha!